Monday, June 09, 2008
monday bloooooooze
it's only monday. can't believe it. my weekend just flew by with me sleeping, and sleeping, and sleeping! =(
it's only monday, and im thinking about the next weekend already. what i wanna do, where i wanna go...
it's only monday, and i wan to go on a holiday! seems like everyone's taking long leaves and going places. i want to go somewhere too! but can't be selfish... lg's just started out on a new job and he needs some time to adjust and prove his worth! haiz... wait wait wait. just wanna go somewhere to hide with lg. he knows all this, so i'm waiting! hahaha
it's only monday, and i have a backlog of work already from last wk. yukS~
it's only monday.............................. WTF!?!!?!?!?!
♥ bubbles SUBTLY fUnKy.
1:15 PM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
big baby
i've been feeling really stressed up at work lately, mostly due to my lack of capacity to handle demands - from superiors, colleagues, customers. most of the adults i've approached tell me this is normal; work is such; everybody faces the same problem. makes me feel like im kicking up a big fuss over nothing.
i think the difference, is some people are supposed to know more than others, and some people care more than others. those who are supposed to know more need to lead those who don't. i feel like im put in a position where i'm supposed to know more, but at this point, im leading those that know more than me. i feel rather lost.
people tell me not to think about work at the end of the day, let everything go. can someone teach me how? all these thoughts just linger all the way till the next morning. how do u switch it off? every morning i wake up feeling like i didn't sleep. i don't want to go to work, i don't want to face the world.
yet at the same time, i feel like a big baby. everyone is doing it, y can't i? am i that pampered a kid that i can't take on the world on my own? i'm sure i can if i want to. do i want to?
i'd really like to ask for help, but do i really need it? =(
♥ bubbles SUBTLY fUnKy.
9:41 AM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
sex & the city
movie about love, friendship, loyalty, conviction, trust, lust, priorities. it made me laugh, it made me cry. a thought-evoking story that i'm glad i watched on such a day. made me rethink my relationship, the way i manage my emotions... invoked fear, doubt... gave me strength to know that love is not about possession. i've learnt a great deal.
it all boils down to communication. communicating thoughts, feelings, plans. being receptive to a different pov. not getting carried away with your own needs and wants, and really listening to what he has to say.
support from friends. often you'd think its the end of the world when he leaves, but there u are, still standing... your dear friends being your pillar of support. you're never alone as long as you have them.
just some random thoughts i had after the show.
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Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
♥ bubbles SUBTLY fUnKy.
4:32 AM
