people will forget what you said, people will forgive what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.
wow! im into my 3rd post! yay 頑張りますよ！ first and foremost, i would like to apologise to anyone i've ever mistreated, been unkind to, or just plain ignored when they needed me. it really is true... people may forget and forgive what you did to them, but it is hardest to forget how you made them feel. emotional scars may never fade away sometimes... i realised that through my wilful and selfish behaviour in the past, i have hurt some of the closest people that i will ever have my whole life, and i am terribly ashamed of it. i used to really dislike being at home. it's as if i woke up on the wrong side of the bed everyday. everyone wanted to comment about everything i did, everything i did wasn't normal, everyday they ask me to change and change and change. it became such a bother that whenever anybody spoke to me, my subconscious replies would be "no", "dowan", or even worse... "TSK". it seemed like nobody could understand me or be considerate enough to just leave me alone. all they did was criticize and make me feel lousy about myself. i really hated them to the core and wondered why the fuck did they bring me into this world when all they did was to make me feel like i don't belong here at all. then one day, i realised that i had no idea what went on ard the house anymore. i wasn't involved in anything anymore. i had built a wall ard myself so tall that i couldn't see what's happening outside at all. i could still hear them talking and laughing about things which i played no part in. i had become an outsider... and that feeling sucked. i was left out, or rather, i left myself out. oh great... look at what i've done to myself... (F7) i wanna start anew. i wanna be able to communicate with my parents, i wanna hang out with my sister (even thou we probably dun have anything in common to do together ;p) i wan my grandma to be able to tell others how happy she is when i do something for her... it's not really hard to be nice to others rite? it just takes a miniscule bit of effort to smile back when someone offers kindness, to say thank you when help is received, and to appreciate the concern given to you. instead of being grumpy and complaining about how much others nag and try to stick their noses in your business, be grateful that somebody actually cares enough to wanna be a nosey parker. (heehee) if friends are the roses in my garden of life, then my family is the soil which gives life to my flowers... i'm sorry for the things i've done, i'm sorry about the way i made you feel... i'll try to be a better gardener from now on!
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